Happy Angelversary Isabella

At 2:50pm on Sunday 28th March 2010 I gave birth to Isabella who was born sleeping at 40 weeks and 5 days. At that moment our lives changed forever. We would never be the same people again.
Today Isabella should be celebrating her 4th birthday here with us but instead we are saying Happy Angelversary Isabella hoping that somehow, somewhere she can hear us.

Losing a baby or child is something no family should ever have to go through but unfortunately it does happen and it happens more than we think.

Before it happened to us I didn't really know much about stillbirth or neonatal death. I didn't know just how often it happens every day in the Uk.

I took my pregnancy for granted and assumed everything would be okay.

I assumed that at the end of the nausea, the sickness, the weight gain, the swollen feet and the sleepness nights I would come home with a baby in my arms. I didn't.

I came home with a pink box instead. Inside was just stuff that the hospital had given me - leaflets to help us deal with a death, details on funeral and other leaflets that I just didn't bother to read.

For the last 4 years I have tried by hardest to raise stillborn awareness and to encourage everyone who is pregnant to visit a midwife or hospital if you have a feeling something may be wrong or you don't feel your baby moving.

I have a fundraising tab at the top of my blog that tells you more about my story and there is also a link to my fundraising page www.justgiving.com/Isabella-Murray

Every penny donated to SANDS goes into the research to why 17 babies are stillborn or die shortly after birth every day.

17 comments

  1. Oh Michelle, I'm so sorry for your tragic loss and hope that you continue to raise awareness. I will visit your just giving page and donate.

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  2. Stay positive. Always donate to a great cause x

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  3. So sorry for your loss. Well done you for raising awareness and helping others, such a positive thing to do!! Happy angelversary Isabella x

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  4. Michelle I am so sorry to read this, Happy Angelversary to your little Isabella. I am so sorry you had to experience this, it must be the hardest thing in the world. Heaven has your 4 year old little angel looking down upon you, keeping you safe and strong. Be proud of yourself for raising awareness and helping others xo

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  5. I am so so sorry for your loss.
    x x x

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  6. How absolutely heart breaking for you all. I am so sorry that you have had to go through this. XxxX my thoughts are with you.

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  7. Hi Michelle, I have been aware of your story for sometime, but it never gets any easier to read, so I can't imagine how hard it must be for you to live it. I hope your charity work continues to thrive and other little lives are protected through increased awareness. xxxx

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  8. I'm sorry to hear about your daughter. I work as part of a chaplaincy team at my local hospital so I know all too well how very common this is. Thank you for sharing your story.

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  9. Happy Angelversary Isabella - I hope you're able to take some comfort in the fundraising you still do in her name xx

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  10. All I can say is that I am thinking of you Michelle. xxx

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  11. Michelle I am so so sorry for your lost, I don't think many know much about this until they experience it. So great that you are spreading the word and helping make pregnant women more aware. I am thinking of you, I know she is watching over you. What a great thing to calling an angelversary. Big hugs.

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  12. I'm so sad to read this post. I can't begin to imagine your pain x

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  13. I don't know what to say. I'm so sorry. Raising awareness is a wonderful tribute xxx

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  14. I can't begin to imagine what you must have gone through. I am glad you are managing to help others by talking about your experience.

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  15. oh so sorry to hear about that, my mum gave had a stillborn with her first one and since i was told about it when i was around 8-9 i was extremely upset as for mum, she is over protective now with me and my pregnancy due to her negative experience

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  16. Reading that actually brought a tear to my eye - I am so sorry for you and your family. The pain you must of felt is unimaginable! So lovely that you are trying to raise peoples awareness of these issues.

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  17. Oh my goodness, I am so so sorry for your loss. I don't think anyone could ever prepare you for that x x

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